I am about to burn a whole load of bridges I can feel it. When I have a squad around me that is far too big for me to manage I find it extremely hard to concentrate on the few important members of the squad.

I know making friends sound like a football team is harsh, but it's not quite jelling for me. I am not really close to anyone any more. In fact I have no close friends left. My choice of course, I made it this way so burning my bridges became easy. And I can feel it is close.

I watch all those I have distanced myself from move on whilst I haven't quite gone anywhere. It's a consequence of being me I suppose - I like to watch other peoples lives evolve and just walk around slowly and aimlessly.

It comes to a point when I wonder if I really want to watch everyone else evolve. I say to myself "life's too short", but at the same time I tell myself there is no rush. But I have made the decision that there are a fair few telephone numbers I no longer need, and in fact they most definitely don't need me.

I don't feel guilt, I feel like it is evolution, on my part too...